Dear Doctor,
I felt alone again today. My day started with a rushing worry, pulling me down and causing me to spiral into the abyss. I think I alienated one of the most important people in my life right now. Life would be a lot easier if he weren't the cause of some of my misery. I suppose I can't complain too much, after all, I lucked out when it comes to teenage drama. No external causes here. It's all just in my head.
Dear Doctor,
I have a habit of marking myself when I get upset. I don't mean with a blade, of course not. Don't even consider that possibility. Been there, done that, and as long as I can help it I'm not going back. Of
know what i can't stand?
self pity.
i used to wallow in it but it's become apparent that it's the most repugnant, foul, and useless thing.
you can be sad sometimes. you will be sad sometimes. it's inevitable
but if you fucking push people away because they get sick of putting up with your whiny bullshit then you had better get your head out of your ass and take a good look around.
it's been a while and i have a lot to say to everyone who still follows me.
i recently got early acceptance to one of the art schools i've looked into.
that's all. i will post the occasional piece from now on but i wont still be here regularly.
after all the shit that i've been dealt this year, it's been really nice to win one, you know? there's so much more out there for me. this is just the beginning.